yesterday was a day of regret

yesterday I regret something. I hope this is not a long remorse. want to forget but remembering back. aaaaaah i wanted to run away........... because i made too many mistake to him. hmmm this is called running away from problems. I know this is not good, but I feel useless I'm waiting here, waiting to be forgiven. I really cannot say "sorry". why?because I know he will not forgive me. if he was not there, it feels uncomfortable. regret is always come late. when I've started to lose, when I'm getting sad, when I recalled all the good he was, when I've started to miss him, regret came. dont know why, I can not say my thoughts to him. soooooooooo stupid!